This post if dedicated to YOU

I know it hasn't been an easy journey for you, i would have to say it has been the other extreme instead. And you're asking yourself why, why you're so affected. The reason like i said this morning, is that when you have invested so much time, sweat and SLEEP into something, you won't let it go down with a fight. And you're still feeling this way cause you want to correct a wrong that has been wrong for too long now. Its an innate instinct, and its exactly that that is so draining. Its like if all your life you have been fighting so hard for something, and right now whatever you fought for means NOTHING, how can you just turn a blind eye to the whole thing and walk away? No one can. If they could why do samurai fighters, rather then being killed by their enemies, commite suicide fight? Its about pride of their culture and what they believe in. YOU my dear, have been fighting a losing battle and if its not going to change i feel you have every right to bow out. BUT sometimes, things don't turn out that way. You know we each have our crosses to carry, sometimes, some of our crosses might be heavier than others. I'm not saying you should continue banging your head against the wall, but there might be a way round it, as slim and unbelivable as it sounds. Just remember, you have so many of us backing you up that you're never fighting this thing alone. XOXO.

whenever i look at it, it hurts.
maybe sometimes not knowing is better than knowing.
to see all those smiles and now realise it was all a hoax..
after all these years, it has come to this.
why?
what died along the way?
who changed along the way?
i really have no clue.
but till today, it still hurts.
it makes my stomach turn and my heart ache.
it makes breathing difficult.

"I don’t wanna dream about, all the things that never were
Maybe I can live without, when I’m out from under.
I don’t wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now.
I’ll get it all figured out, when I’m out from under"

IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE ABLE TO TYPE EVERY SINGLE THING USING THE NORMAL KEYBOARD AND NOT HAVING TO ALTERNATE BETWEEN THE ON SCREEN KEYBOARD.
I'M SO HAPPY I'M GOING TO TYPE NONSENSE.
SO THAT I CAM JUST TYPE MORE STUFF!!

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AHAH!

Late morning and afternoon showers with thunder.

WHY?

she laments, "oh the holidays, the sweet sweet holidays."

what a dry run!
what load of nonsense we all babbled!

" samuel did you just try to look at your watch without opening your eyes?!!"

" you know who my father is right? Ya.. Incest"

"Eh kok sing! I buy you different flavoured donuts everyday want?"

"Actually vulgarities are underrated"

"OH! Give me your number and i'll message you DONUT KING!"

The RO SPASM- both shakes violently almost simultaneously when enacting how to use a paper cutter to kill a pr*f.


Its AMAZING the amount of nonsense produced.
Its almost like we're manufacturing nonsense.
Like a nonsense FACTORY.

"It seems that
Everyday we're fightin', and we're
Causin' bolts of lightnin', like a
Hot and cold collision in the sky."

crazy crazy weeks these few weeks have been.
all major things always happen at the same time and end at the same time.
its really quite unfair cause then you can't fully moan and groan about each of them, one at a time.
you gotta complain and slog them out all at the same time.
it totally deprives a person of that satisfaction.
which kinda sucks.

one major event is my pet event.
bike rally.
and though i would say the role i played this year was erm a rather paper tigeressish role to me, i still feel rather sad its going to end so soon.
its a rather bitter sweet emotion.
to date, even before the event is here i think i am rather proud of this event comm.
the usual mishaps happen, but i think they have done an amazing job and i'm really proud to be part of this team, despite feeling redundant **% of the time.
i'm starting to actually feel really sad.
its letting go all over again.

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!

some people make you feel like a million bucks
some people make you feel like you in the pits
some people make you feel like nothing in the world can ever go wrong with them around
some people make you feel like you've had an overdose of prozac
some people make you feel like the world is going to end
some people make you feel like you're just not worth it
some people make you feel like you're the most precious person there ever is/was

whether you feel what they make you feel.
well.
thats the tricky part.
cause, you don't have to.
there's gravity, where what goes up must come down.
then,
there is anti gravity too.
of course that is far more difficult to achieve, for obvious reasons,
but it is definitely not unachievable.

how great it'd be if the ability to control one's feelings, is as natural as say gravity.
how much greater our lives would all be.
we can experience whatever emotion we want,
anytime we want to.

oh make my blood pump 7,8,9
make my heart beat double time
now i'm the only sour cherry on the fruit stand, right?
am i the only sour cherry on the the fruit stand?