Recently so many things have happened. Everything just comes and just hits in the face one after another not going you space and all you can do is accept all its blows. i hits you so hard but you know you have to stand strong, you have to fight. Fight fight fight all the way, no matter how hard it is you have to fight. You MUST fight cause if you don't you DIE. You'll be DEAD, FINISHED. You will DISAPPEAR, SINK. BUT thank GOD that i nnenver went through this alone. My friends have always been there and seriously its beacuse of you all that everything is ok.
Yien: Thanks for always being there. Always. My pillar of strength. For giving up so much for me. You're always willing and i'm really grateful for that. You're the best bestfriend anyone could possibly have! (: Thanks for all that you have done. Love you forever and always. *hugss and muaksss*
Steph: Hey darling thanks for all the times you have heard me through, especially that day. 1 Hour in the toilet, that was like... You've really helped me through a lot. *laughs* Thanks. *muaks and hugs*
Charmaine: You are the one that gives me the courage and strength to push on and fight, whenever i feel like giving up i think of you and i continue to go on. Thanks babe! Love ya. *Hugs*
Suhalia: Even though its only monday nights we see each other you always never fail to make me laugh and that brightens my whole week. *laughs* Thanks darl! *hugss*
Michelle: Hey dearie thanks for being a pen and a paper away. Its so easy to vent out anything especially during boring lessons. Haha. Even though replies aren't that often. *laughs* Luv ya! (:

Brian: Always only a message away. Thanks for replying and like helping to cool me down sometimes. Haha. And also for providing so much information on the J1s. *laughs* Also for acting stupid and everything. *smiles* Thanks! (:

Christine: I'm really glad that stuff now are much better and we can talk like last time. Its much easier to tell you stuff now also. Don't worry so much about your competiton, The Good Lord will be guiding you throughout the whole thing! *hugs*
Richard: Thanks for being so crappy and everything, cause even though i'm upset you can still make everyone laugh. *grins*
Thank you all of you. To everyone thanks for just hearing me out and always being there! love ya'll. (:
Finally i thank God for giving me all of you!! (:

Beauty
noun
[C or U] the quality of being pleasing, especially to look at, or someone or something that gives great pleasure, especially by being looked at
The sunset this evening was such a beauty.
It was beautiful.
Only if i had a camera......

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like.

NEWS FLASH:t09 rawwwkkksss!! (:

Thanks guys for the niccceeeee lovelyyyy wonderfullll thing that you made. i'm reaaaaally toucheddd! Thanks sooo muccchhh! Luuvvv all of ya!! (:

Second NEWS FLASH: I am soooooooo tiiiiiiirreddd!!!

Life is like SUPER hectic now. Sometimes i wish we had day light saving or something. Extend time. Everything just goes past me like *whoosh* so quick beore i can actually grasp anything.

orientation is over.
it happened so fast!
i miss everyone already.
especially my class, t09.
t09 rawks!
luminos rawks too!
so did the whole orientation.
hope evveerrryyyyooonnnneeee enjoyed it!
(:
I did.

My dad just left for London. One year. Sigh. ):

1st of January 2005. A day to rejoice? A day to feel sorrow? A day to shout and say," Thank goodness 2004 is over. The year filled with epidermics and natural disaster, even up till the last few days of the year. maybe a new year might bring about a turn in events, wash away the pain, a new year to start all over again, an end to all that has happened the years before." Or is it a day to lament and say, " We thought that 2004 would have been a better year from 2003 but look what it had brought about? A war, severe avian influenza, natural disasters, terrorist attacks etc. Would 2005 be worse? What would this year bring, what more could it possibly bring? "
Last night/This morning when i was in town looking at the estatic faces of those spraying confetti all over the place. The whole place was choked with people, the whole area vibrant with colours, so full of life. And when i woke up this morning and read the papers, it was so dull and gloom, so much misery so much death. What is going on? Are we to mourn or to rejoice? Comparing the expressions on the faces of those in town and those in the photos in the papers, which one is real? Both are.
I just hope that this year whatever it brings be it more joy or pain that people will understand that only with hope and co operation would we all be able to still enjoy this year. Come what may.