ANTI GRINCH

I don't think i've had a week as packed as this week in a long long time. Well, maybe not exactly an extremely long time, i think since i've ended school, which to me seems like my other life. It seems like i've graduated eons ago, even though it has only been less than 6 months. Never would i have ever dreamt, when i was still schooling that my life would be how it is today. Its really a mad world. I'm quite anxious about this sunday but i hope everything turns out well, i hope most of all that everyone enjoys themselves. I mean, hopefully there are no hiccups but even if any do occur, i think the most important thing is that everyone enjoys themselves and have a great afternoon. Ultimately, happiness, joy fun and laughter is best when shared and i think the best gift anyone can ever receive. What is the point of having all material things in ones possession if one is neither happy nor satisfied? And aren't people seeking such materialistic goals in hopes of seeking a sense of joy and satisfaction? However they add up just wanting more and more things, never truly satisfied with what they already have.

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Just running through my photos made my realise how much i miss everyone from school. Well not from school, school per say but more from like university. I miss times when i happen to chance upon people and have like maybe 5 min catch up sessions before hurriedly rushing to class cause i'm late or something. When everyone meets at a certain event and just jest around and talk nonsense. Its all these little things that i miss the most. Especally hall with all those wacks around. Like the one who talks to her two bears, and the one who likes to take naps before dinner. Even the one who lives a few blocks down the road. And then there is all that eye candy around. I definitely don't get much of that around now a days. SIGHHHH.

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I knew this was a dream it was too good to be true

Coincidences were a bit much too

Who wants to wake up?

Who wants to lose it?

Who wants to live in this place?

I don't, so I'll be sleeping in

TOO BAD TOO LATE

Maybe, owing to the fact that i was brought up in an english speaking environment and the fact that for a good 11 years of my life i was in schools were more people spoke english compared to any other language, i just took it for granted that most Singaporeans speak english. That people who spoke mandarin were the lesser of the chinese population. Maybe thats why i never particularly paid attention to mastering the chinese language well. Now however, i see i'm clearly wrong. And wish more than ever that i had put in more affect in grasping the language. It is so difficult for me to hold an actual conversation with the other working staff in mandarin and hence makes communication rather difficult. It really sucks. Half the time whenever they speak i have no freaking idea what they just said and so i just smile or laugh and hope it was a statement, something i don't have to reply to. Its really awkward. Thank goodness i went to NTU and actually grappled with the fact that i had to learn how to speak more mandarin or be left out.

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I have yet to work at an outlet that has more rules. One rule even included not being allowed to wear jackets. When the security dude told me that all staff in that department were not allowed to wear jackets i was like UGHHH? I just stared at him. Where i work its friggin cold. Like so cold that your hand totally freezes up and can actually thaw when you're under the sun. I have to wear, on top of my polo tee, a cardigan and a jacket and i'm still cold. When he told me that, i just blurted out, " So i just don't wear and freeze??" I mean its totally wacko that i can't wear a jacket!!

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All my ladies get it up
I see you, I do the same
Take it to another level
No passengers on my plane

SEEKING MOIRA

And today is the day that commemorates the birth of someone who is highly irritable yet lovable. A total contradictory person (maybe it runs in the genes). Someone with an extremely short fuse with people but who also has great patience and high tolerance towards all small animals. And hence to mark the birth of such a person, we went, after dinner to this new dessert bar, TOBY's, which IMHO is quite nice. Its definitely a place i would want to go back again to. Its a great place to chill and the names of the items on the menu really gave us a good laugh. My personal favorite was forest grump. It made me laugh quite a bit, just imagining a really grumpy wild thing in the forest just stomping around grumpily with a really moody ugly face. That would be some sight, but i don't think i would like to actually run into a forest grump.

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Amy told me that she's gonna meet me up
I don't know where or when and now they're closing up the club, oh
I've seen her once or twice but boy she knows my face
But it's hard to see with all the people standing in the way, oh

SAYONARA

Dinner tonight was definitely much more solemn than usual. I guess cause the dinner topics were much more serious. It really sucks that you spend more than half your life doing something and in less than a year so much changes. What's difficult would definitely be the transition period, getting used to the fact that you have become just like about another 60 or so percent of the population. Holding a job, rising before the sun is out, coming home after the sun is down. I got really depressed when that happened during my internship. I mean, it really sucked not being able to be out in the sun in the day, instead you're just stuck in office starring at the monitor. Yeah you do get paid to do that but.. It still is pretty sucky if you ask me. Well, as what everyone would say, it's just all part and parcel of life, you gotta make it work for you!



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I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day

OUTBACK

My mother can be very contradictory. The things that she says sometimes really totally makes me go, UHHHH?!! Like when i was talking sounding half dead, cause i'm was totally whammed out she was all, "Why do you talk like that? Don't talk like that unless you are dying." But when i talk normally she says,"Why do you talk so loudly do you want the neighbours to know your whole life story?" I think i should just not talk at all. Then again she might say, " Why are you so quiet? Is there something wrong with you?"


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These past few days have been quite crazy. With work and other things. Can't believe that little girl is in Perth now!vIt was rather funny sending her off and just reminiscing all the other trips I've taken on my own. She was so scared it was actually quite endearing. She asked," Jie what if this is like another final destination? What if I come home half dead?" What a lot of what ifs! I really wouldn't know what to do if that really happened. Hopefully she enjoys herself! Wonder how camping in Perth would actually feel like! Maybe I should give it a shot one day, with my sister as my guide. HAH. That'll really be the day!

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This morning was so tiring!! But extremely fun! Its always fun if you do stuff in a group i guess. I totally would not imagine myself doing activities like such if i had to do them alone! And i'm so glad its SUNDAY! I have this thing for sundays now.

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A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

COL+ CHALLENGE

Hopefully today would be the first and last day of this madness. It wasn't as tiring and strenuous as i expected. Maybe cause people were actually talking to me. The staff at that supermarket were really nice and i actually made a new friend. HAHA. Another guy was saying she was talking to me cause she wanted me to give her stuff but what the hell, it was rather interesting and at least it was some form of company. And now i totally have this OCD where i have to arrange whatever that is surrounding me nicely. Like if people take stuff and mess it up i just have to put it back nicely and like line them up and push the products to the front. Its crazy really and there are staff actually paid to do that kinda thing but i just do it anyway. The craziest part though is that i have to do it secretly and believe or not, i actually find some thrill in that. HAHA. And i actually LIKE doing it.

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I'm totally psyched that everyone is coming back!!! (:

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One Tribe, one time, one planet, one race
It's all one blood, don't care about your face
The color of your eye or the tone of your skin
Don't care where ya are
Don't care where ya been

VOLCANO

I'm really really really really angry. I don't think i've been that furious in an extremely long while. They are totally jesting with us. There is something wrong with their work ethics. I just can't figure out what is the problem, why everyone is so unhappy and wanting to leave.

IN THE DOLDRUMS

Today was really depressing. Even more depressing than the first day of work, i guess cause that only lasted slightly over an hour. And that was more of a challenge then just plain depressing. I don't understand why people just wouldn't want to sample. Its weird. I mean they have nothing to lose. Its not like i'm asking them to try some new NUCLEAR product that is harmful. This is really GOOD for a person, but no they won't try. And the worst part was there were DO MANY people. It was teeming with people. That was what just made my emotions plummet. It even made me question whether i could actually even accomplish this simple job. Its definitely not difficult but i don't seem to be doing well. It may just be a part time job, but i hate not being able to accomplish it well. I don't like just getting money for nothing. I like doing something, and that is why i always want to keep myself busy. Just standing around is easy, but its meaningless and time passes so much slower that way. I hope i'll be out of the rut i was in today and tomorrow will be much better.

At least i have something or more like someone to look forward to tomorrow!! ((:

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Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too

FIRST RUNNER UP

November is a month filled with a whole lot of birthdays. Well, i should rephrase that by saying November is a most filled month with birthdays of people who are really special! And all within a span of 8 days. I still think September ranks first amongst the months, followed by November. HAHA.

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Working in the service industry makes you humble. I think it would be a good experience for every single person. You would then truly know how to appreciate the person serving you. You will then know that it is not easy and that most of the times when things screw up its not in their power to do much. I hate it when i see people in the service industry getting"bullied" by people who pay for the service. I understand that the customers are paying and thus should deserve the service that they have paid for but sometimes, things are really not under the control of the person serving you.

For example, when you want a certain colour of nail polish for your nails and it has run out. There is  no point scolding the staff serving you and demanding that you want a certain colour. If its not there, its not there. Its not their fault that it had run out. One may argue though and say that they should have reordered way before hand when the colour was running low, yes that is true, but the thing is what had happened had ALREADY happened. No one can change that fact, there is no point demanding for something that is not there and getting all worked up about it. Just take another colour! It won't kill, its not a life and death matter and gives you a chance to try something new! I've seen it happen more than once, and, no i am not talking about nail polish colours that have ran out, but of things along the same line as what i have described.

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And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

BUMBLE BEE

First, a shout out to the two lovely birthday girls. Goldfish and constanceyeosoontat. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Have an enjoyable day today, as much as you possibly can. And remember, according to the book of life, your birthday is a week long so try and spend it as happily as you can remember and gather birthday memories you can save keep forever. (: OLVE.

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See Marianne, thats the kind a thing you always get yourself into. Another tight spot. You always do this sort of thing to yourself and you have no one else to blame except, yourself. Sometimes i even wonder why i let myself into this kinda stuff and i don't think i have ever come up with a convincing answer other than the fact that it keeps me occupied.

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It's your birthday
We gon' party like it's yo birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's yo birthday
and you know we don't give a fuck
It's your birthday!

THE RMAs

Last night was beyond fun. Sang our hearts and lungs out. It was incidentally the first time experiencing karaoke in ENGLISH. So different from the times when all everyone sang were chinese songs. There we were with our alter egos of the night, belting out our "hit songs". Plus it was so great that we all dressed up which made everything seem so much more exciting and real.In attendence for the Richard Music Awards was Beyonce, Kathy Perry, Michael Jackson (in the flesh), Flo Rida, Lady Gaga (very toned down version though), Nelly Furtado (who looked like a dead ringer for Taylor Swift and last but not least Rihanna. We sang so hard my throat was so sore after that night!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
There's Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

HASTA LA VISTA

Super drained. Feet aching. Heart disheartened. Mind fuzzy. I don't really like working in town. Then again if thats what it takes to time pass as fast as it did today then i guess i won't complain.


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Another day has gone, I'm still all alone

How could this be you're not here with me

You never said goodbye, someone tell me why

Did you have to go and leave my world so cold?

 BRAIN TEASER

Today has been mentally draining. I really think the whole system that we have is rather screwed up. I don't think its too screwed up cause i think it could work but they just have to fine tune certain things. Its like they want to give us more responsibility and yet they don't really give us full responsibility. I know its difficult to draw the line hence it becomes quite troublesome and difficult for both parties at times.

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Hopefully this week nothing too embarrassing happens. I hate being at places where many people frequent. People i might actually recognize. Especially people who judge. Frankly i can't really be bothered about the extra cash anymore. I just want to get this whole thing over and done with in a jiffy.

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Her mind is Tiffany-twisted, she got the Mercedes bends
She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget

SERIOUSLY

First off, THANK YOU SO MUCH. YOU know who you are. It was a very sticky issue i got caught in but really thank you. I hereby promise that i will be more careful and vigilant. REALLY.

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OMG. Can it get any worse?? Why the hell do they have to do something like that? As if my life was not miserable enough now i have to worry about something else which i don't even think i had to in the first place. Well its a good thing there is no penalty for not doing it well BUT STILL. It really sucks. And it sucks that people are so difficult to contact, which doesn't make life any easier for me. Hopefully i can get everything settled by tomorrow. And its supposed to be a BREAK.

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Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

REDUSE REUSE RECYCLE

Nowadays in every supermarket, at the vegetable and fruits section there are many rolls of plastic around for shoppers to use. The way the shoppers use them though, is extremely appalling. I don't get why people have to use so many plastic bags! It really makes me boil when i see people going to supermarkets and just pulling scours of plastic bags use. If they want to use it to contain the loose vegetables or fruits well, i guess thats fine. Thats the whole idea why it was there in the first place, however many abuse such plastic bags using them to store frozen items that are already either wrapped in plastic or a styrofoam box. Sometimes some even go to the extent of placing milk cartons and dairy products in plastic bags. I know they are free but that does not give you a right to use them as you wish! OUR EARTH IS DYING! SHE IS SUFFERING and there you are grabbing plastic bags like there is no tomorrow. Have you ever considered the consequences of your actions? Every little thing/action helps! Take only what you NEED! On one hand, people complain about the extreme climate change, about how Singapore is getting hotter by the day etc. ITS YOUR OWN FAULT! Be more thoughtful, please. This earth was not GIVEN to us to do as we please with, it is only on LOAN. What we are truly supposed to do is to LOOK AFTER it for future generations, its only on loan to us for this lifetime. Thats the only way our descendants would be able to enjoy nature as we have today, which being brutally honest is not much, but if we continue wasting as we do today, there would be even less for them to cherish.

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Every time i think that was the worst day, another day comes by that is even worse than before. Today however, i think would definitely qualify for a worst day career contest. It didn't help when i rolled out of bed this morning croaking like a toad with a sorethroat, it ain't pretty. I still went to work though, cause well, money's good and to get that money, i need to work plus i wasn't having a fever or anything. So on the way to work, i just kept sucking lozenges which did help to ease up on the throat. I thought everything was going to be fine but it just got colder and colder and the air was so dry that i started coughing quite badly. Then i got the cr**ps. I hate it when i get THE CR**PS. I was trying to talk to people as naturally as possible and willing time to pass as quickly as possible. It didn't help though and i just ended up going back early. So much for trying to suck it up. RARH.

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Three it's a magic number
Yes it is, it's a magic number
Because two times three is six
And three times six is eighteen
And the eighteenth letter in the alphabet is R
We've got three R's we're going to talk about today